Understanding the Fear of Success: A Personal Account

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Oh, folks, what did you think of that?

I know I asked this question every time, but that intro was from eleven labs and I like them.

I may go in today and create some new ones.

I hope you're doing well if you didn't get this.

This is Gray Hair Dave and I'm here to talk to you today about things I want to talk about.

I don't know what they are yet, but I'm going to talk about it.

There's a break in the schedule, so I have time.

I.

I want to apologize to you for not being as consistent as I want to be.

And it's not fair to you.

It's not right.

And I'll be honest, I've had some, had some personal issues in my head that have just made me not want to do this.

And it's not that I don't want to do it, it's that I just, I've lost that spark to go out and get, get started again.

And I don't like that.

It's not cool.

It's not cool, dude.

It's just not cool.

And I don't want this to be something that takes me from recording every week and goes to just this mix match of, well, here and there and I'll record one week and not the next.

It's the same thing I'm going through with my business.

I've.

I've been off of work from, for now, going on for at least seven weeks, going on eight.

And I've really not done much.

And I know that there's phrases out there for what I'm going through or conditions or whatever you want to call it, the new word of the day, you know, and I figured it out.

I think it's fear of success.

I think I've got a good idea and I know it'll work.

And I know there are people out there who would use my services and I'm not getting out there and doing it out there trying to find them.

And that's good.

You're not in business if you're not doing that.

You're just a hobby.

And I don't want this to be a hobby.

I want this to replace.

So this is why I've got to get back in gear with this and do it once a week.

And no more excuses if that means doing it at 1 o'clock in the morning when everybody is asleep, I go do it at 1 o'clock in the morning.

If that means getting up at 6 o'clock in the morning to go do it, that means getting up at 6 o'clock in the morning to go do it.

No more of this goofing around, right?

I'm the only one who can make me serious about this, make it mine.

And I want to do that.

So thank you for hanging around.

Okay, I've still got the last recording I did which was like a week and a half ago and I'm going to put that out today.

So I'll put two of them out today or one today and one tomorrow.

They'll come out.

This is number 145 folks.

So I'll put them out and I'll get them edited and get back into my editing and, and get very back to being good at that.

And we'll go on.

Now for my next subject, let's move on.

Let's get past days belly aching life.

I remember telling you I lost my nephew back in last month and that was tough on me and I know it was tough on my brother and my other nephew and everybody that knew him and loved him, which was so many people just, just finally getting to a point where I was doing a little bit better.

And I get another text message from my brother, my four brother, he gets, gets all the notifications and he's kind of in charge of getting him out there.

But one of my, my childhood friends passed away this week.

Last week.

I'm sorry, last week?

I'm recording this on Tuesday, I think it happened last Thursday or Friday.

And we had lost touch, hadn't talked in years and years and years and years and years and years.

We grew up in the same neighborhood on the same block.

He lives like five or six houses down from me.

I mean we played, we did all kinds of things together.

We were in the same grade at school and you know, he was a good kid, he was a good grandfather and a good father is what I understand.

And I don't know because when I moved away from Port Huron, which is where we all grew up.

But when, you know, when we all, when I moved away from Port Huron, I never went back to live like a lot of people did.

And I lost touch with all those people.

You grow, you go to different, you just do.

You, you go to different places in your life.

You, you, you, you grow and you move on.

Is that right?

No, but it is part of life.

And I don't want to.

I'm not saying anything bad about him or me.

We both could have tried, but we both found different friends and different lifestyles.

We did.

We both found different lifestyles and different groups to be a part of.

And I feel bad about that.

I don't stay in touch with my friends from back when I was growing up, back when I was in high school or even grade school and middle school or just junior high school, as we called it.

I just don't.

And that's, that's bad on me.

But a lot of time has passed and I don't know that it's worth worrying too much about.

Maybe it is.

Maybe I should be.

I should be.

So if you're out there and you're a friend of mine from years past, I'm sorry, you know, send me a message so I know where, how to get a hold of you.

Because I don't know how to get a hold of most of you.

I really don't.

Not without going through my brother.

And that's just wrong.

So anyway, there's also social media and I could, I could reach out.

But anyways, here we go onto the next subject.

Let's get over that.

Let's go into the I would I've come to, to know in this podcast as the last three or four minutes of Politics.

I was, I was watching TV yesterday for a little bit and I still watch that show on ABC with all the women in it, including Whoopi Goldberg.

And now I think they've got a new enemy, Chuck Schumer, who's a Democrat on their side because he changed his mind on not wanting to shut down the federal government over the budget.

And it makes sense because it's just going to make the Democrats look worse if they continue down the road they're on and they're going to want to shut the government down.

It's not going to hurt us, you know, it's going to hurt them.

And you know, so some of these people are upset with him because he's now concerned about it and what's he doing?

And now is he coming around to the Trump side of world of the world.

And we all know he's not, that's not who he is.

Jesus.

But anyways, that's what's going on with that.

But yeah, they find something every day.

And I, every once in a while I will turn on, I'll turn on Fox News just to see what they're saying.

And they're, they're pretty pro Trump.

And then I turn over to MSNBC, and they are pretty much all negative TRUMP 100% of the time, which I find hilarious to watch.

And then, you know, I go over to like, cnn and CNN is trying to build back what they've lost because their, their integrity was, was smirched, as is an old phrase.

But it was, it was a God.

It was tainted because of all the things that said they said and done.

And they didn't do some nice things, they said some nasty things and, and they got, you know, they got their butt caught in the door and it slammed shut.

There's another phrase we use for that, but I'm not going to use that on here.

So it's fun to watch them not so much implode, but just it's how.

How have we gotten this way again, is how.

I keep asking this question and I don't know the answer to it, and I don't know that I want to know the answer to it that much, but I keep asking.

It's how do we get this way?

How do we become so divided that if you don't believe what I believe, you are absolutely wrong and I have to hate you.

There are people I know who don't believe what I believe.

I don't hate them folks.

I love them because they're friends or their acquaintances and they have their own opinion.

And that opinion is just as important to them as mine is to me.

I have friends.

One, the husband is, is one way and the wife is another.

So one's a Republican, one's a Democrat.

How they, how they live together, I don't know, but they do because they believe in more than one point of view.

And there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.

If we could get back to that in the world.

There's nothing wrong with having more than one point of view.

It doesn't mean that I have to be killed or have to die because you don't believe what I believe.

That's horse plucky.

It is.

Grow up.

If you don't believe what I believe, you're not going to die because of it.

You know what I'm saying?

It's, it's like everybody's over there now.

It's like, oh, my God, he doesn't believe what I believe, he's got to die.

Baloney.

God, just.

It's crazy, out of control, and I don't see it getting any better.

And it's gonna have to soon, folks.

Something's gonna have to break.

Something is going to have to say, enough.

Something's gonna say Oops.

Okay, let's take this back a bit and not be so ultimately, ultimately PO'd.

I don't know.

So those were my topics of the day, folks.

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